Page 2 of the book Madeleine
and I have managed to dig deep and remain focused, although the
temptation to shout the truth from the rooftops has always been there".
So kate, what's stopping you?
Clearly your own words tell us you have not told the truth from the get go.
You have been lying.
Why would you, as an 'innocent' mother have the need to lie about what happened to your daughter?
What have you been telling us?
That Maddie was abducted from your apartment by a paedophile.
Now if that isn't the truth dearest kate, pray tell, what is the truth?
Is the truth what we have said all along?
That Maddie is long dead and that you and gerry and your tapas chums
are involved in her homicide, concealment of her corpse and filing a
false police report.
the reason you can't and won't shout the truth from the rooftops
because to do so would incriminate you all and result in long jail terms
and a loss of everything including ALL the children?
The brain knows the truth and seeks to speak it, relieving the stress caused by lying.
Time and time again you leak the truth through your words both spoken and written.
You have to.
You are compelled to by your own guilt
The stress all the guilt and lies are having on you is writ clear upon your face.
Remember way back when your daughter Madeleine vanished from your apartment, allegedly abducted by a paedophile?
We saw the glow on your face.
We saw the laughter at the church on what would have been her 4th birthday.
We saw you positively beaming with delight.
You looked as if a huge weight had been lifted from your shoulders.
Why? is what i asked myself, along with thousands of others.
Your daughter is missing, allegedly abducted by a paedophile, suffering unimaginable horrors yet you and gerry looked so relaxed and strain free,
Was it because the source of the problems in your family was gone?
You told us Maddie missing caused additional problems
Was it because no Maddie meant a huge weight lifted from your shoulders and life was good?
You never physically searched, you admitted that in a TV interview.
You never went out day after day with the locals, the ex pats, the tourists and all the police who walked for miles and miles in all kinds of weather looking for YOUR DAUGHTER, even to using vacation time to keep searching?
Your family and friends came over, not to actually do any searching , rather to sit around the pool and lounge around doing stuff such as cooking a meal or dropping the children off at the creche or collecting them (BTW, were the swimming costumes just in case she turned up in a swimming pool somewhere?)
You were out jogging within days of Maddie going missing, even to gerry happily bragging how good your times were to the top of the hill.
You admitted in interviews that Maddie was dead, you told the world she was dead and you knew it.
heck you even went so far as to hire some South African man with a bit of kit to find her body.
Why do that and yet claim she was still alive?
That's one heck of a contradiction dear.
You told us you saw her lying cold and mottled on a cold slab- strangely enough a vivid description of what a body looks like several days after death when they have not been embalmed.
Is this your last memory of her kate?
Is there perhaps where the pink blanket went?
Then you confided to your mom that Maddie haunted you.
Honey, live people do not haunt, dead people do.
As each day passes the stresses and strains continue to build.
You have admitted in your book you hate gerry.
Your marriage was in trouble before the vacation, perhaps you thought with the cause of the problem gone it would all be rainbows, money and fame.
Did you think you would have a quick chat with a nice police officer over a cuppa and some chocolate biscuits and then off you would jolly well go, forever the victim?
Sadly for you and luckily for Maddie and us, the police took one look at the scene and your initial stories and saw it didn't make sense, it could not have happened as claimed.
Rather than you being victims, the long suffering parents, you became the rightful suspects in Maddie's disappearance.
You are desperate to speak the truth, you tell us this, yet, still you don't.
You, instead leak marbles, the truth,. bit by bit in an attempt to ease the guilt and stress.
I know you want this charade to end.
You want your surviving children to have a semblance of a normal life, we all do.
The only way this can and will happen is if you speak the truth and bring this charade to an end.
I know you want to give Maddie a dignified burial.
I know you want to be allowed to properly grieve in the open.
Telling the truth and admitting what happened will bring this about.
Your children are of an age where they use the Internet, on their phones, at school, with their friends.
You cannot stop them looking for information about what happened.
They may well remember things you thought they hadn't seen or heard, things they shouldn't have seen or heard.
Now is the time to speak the truth.
Your children are still of an age where they can forgive you for what you did to their sister and also to themselves.
As they grow older and learn more and remember more, the less likely they will buy your minimising, your deception.
One day they will confront you with what the know.
Will they be the ones to speak to the police?
Better now to speak the truth and begin the process of healing.
The first step is always the hardest, yet, once you have taken that first step, the sense of relief will be intense.
No more worries about who will talk, after all friendships and relationships change, your best friend today can be your worst enemy tomorrow.
Once the truth is out you can grieve openly.
something you want and need to do.
It may mean walking away from your marriage, a destructive marriage based on lies and deception is no good for your or your children.
There will be consequences, but if you speak the truth, they may not be as bad as you feared.
There are plenty of people who are willing to help you, willing to listen , willing to support you, you though have to take the first step, admit the truth whatever it may be and then accept the help and support that is offered.
You tell us you want to shout the truth from the roof tops.
There is nothing stopping your from doing so except you.